It's always painful to watch HN discuss race.<p>The majority of us will consider crossing the street to avoid an oncoming $category_of_person. Maybe it's black men, maybe it's police, maybe it's beggars, maybe it's missionaries, maybe it is visibly agitated men of any color, etc.<p>Maybe you feel like you've failed a bit every time it happens. Maybe your personality changes over time and at some point you taught yourself to abstain from such behavior. But, feelings are harder to change than behavior...<p>When I pass my own problematic $category_of_person on the street (on the same side, now!), I spend a few seconds with no other topic on my mind than that person.<p>It is because deep down, some part of me still sees that person as a threat, like a cliff or a fire or a bear.<p>This is terrible, I know. Look, I'm trying to explain racism. Gimmie a minute...<p>My mother taught me, before I was old enough to know better, to avoid some categories of people. To fear them, for my safety.<p>I can, do, and will continue to overcome those crappy cards I was dealt.<p>But don't put a badge on my chest and a gun on my hip and tell me to go talk to various categories of people in inherently heated situations and expect that evil that has been a part of me since before I can remember to never manifest itself in a statistically significant fashion. That's stupid. Police officer is not the job for me. Duh! See above!<p>What I'm getting at is that my own combination of upbringing and later enlightenment is not uncommon. (Said differently: it's not uncommon for a person to be less racist than their parents were, right?) And therefor some meaningful percentage of good cops who don't consider themselves racist are, in fact, racist in a statistically significant way. Stress = gunfire.<p>...So... can we be done resisting the Black Lives Matter meme? Please? Y'all look ignorant when you do that. :)<p>p.s. the fear when walking thing dissipates immediately if a conversation happens, etc. It's not that big of a deal, right? We'll all have a good laugh about it one day when I am caught off guard and mugged by a white girl... Anyway, I'm sorry. I try.