I've noticed something which I refuse to believe might be the case. I rather deny the fact then accept it around the people I am with because if I accept it, I feel I don't know what I'm doing in my life and all might have been a lie.<p>I've been living in a developing country [my home country] after moving away from a the first world country for family reason. As a 25 year old, introvert and someone who has social anxiety without ever knowing it, I just can't understand what is happiness.<p>I have observed people out in the street, at stores, at restaurants just doing their jobs and happy. They laugh and go to small parties and look as if content. This observation was made even by a working at a small local company which wasn't much that people just worked. They did not have any desire to make more money as to gain skills. It boggles my mind they just 'keep churning'. They go back to their home living with family and come back, rinse on repeat. Even small shops, really small shops/restaurants who might think they need money to survive, they don't have any real check and balance. It's literally "I want this". You go off someone else where the cook might be, you pick up it up after it's done and you head back to the cashier. The cashier doesn't have any idea what I ordered, the quantity or anything. There is possibility just walk away without paying.<p>Whereas what I believe at the moment, I need skills and wealth to achieve happiness. I sometimes question, am I even unhappy? Yes I'm unhappy because I don't have a career, I don't have a home, I don't wealth etc. But in reality, the way families work here, they want everyone to live under the same roof, making small amount of money to 'run the kitchen', share family car. Why seek an independent life when all the needs can be provided by entire families working together.<p>I fear the life I'm striving for might lead to loneliness. I.e moving away from my home, starting a career, moving to a different country from developing to develop, getting into corporate life and eventually becoming wealthy. In my eyes, I would feel I'm the most successful with most money in the bank, but what would other think?