You might be interested in this thread from a few days ago, which talks about ways of fighting depression:<p><a href="https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=16922738" rel="nofollow">https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=16922738</a>
Before following the advice of strangers on the internet, please see a doctor (even a general practitioner) about your depression. If you're feeling suicidal, many countries have free suicide hotlines.