I took major steps towards completing suicide back in 2018 and have held on since then. Things have deteriorated since then. Afraid to go but it's time. I pray for forgiveness.<p>If I'm crazy, I want to die. If I'm not delusional, then humans are truly shit (e.g. reddit [reddit is a ycombinator alum 2005/2006] stalking in 2009 and dozens of incidents since) and I want to die.<p>Fuck you, reddit scumbags and your Putin worship from long ago. Creepy ass scumbag fucks with data and algos. Good riddance. Get me off this ape planet.<p>Au revoir.
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I have a moral conflict with suicide. On the one hand, I think life is precious, and we should hold onto it and try to make the best of it as we can. I am agnostic, I don’t know what comes next, so I feel like I need to hang on and do the best I can here because it may be the only life I have. However, I am also very fiercely supportive of a person‘s right to self-determination. If someone is intent on ending their life, I will not stand in their way, nor should the government.<p>Almost 40, I have a wife and children, I could never dream of leaving them and so no matter how bad things get, I’m always reminded that I have something better to live for. I cannot imagine what it’s like for someone who doesn’t have some thing or someone to live for, or something to look forward to an aspire to day after day. Nevertheless, life is what you make it, and it is your life to live or end.
I know: it hurts, to see and feel all that. It really hurts. All the time.<p>BUT: It is pointless to go. Who shall prevent all the madness from happening when all sane people are gone? The world needs those people who go against wrong doers of all kinds.
Maybe you should close all your accounts on all social media and stay away from social media for a while. Social media sites like Reddit, and Twitter are designed to cause outrage.
I think you should stay off reddit (it helped my mood). I hope you get some help, but I'm not doing great either so I think I understand. All the best mate :)
The user morpheos137 has reminded me of why I want off of this malicious scumbag ape planet. Good riddance.<p>I haven't eaten in two days and ran out of drinking water today.
User morpheos137 clarified the reality I was denying: the problem is me and that the world is better off without me.<p>I will try to finish suicide now and do the gene pool a favor.<p>Thanks.