I frequently feel a desire to effectively go off the grid and cut ties with the family I was born into, skip the country and start a new life.
However, I’ve never actually done that, partly because I recognise that I am romanticising in my own mind what it would be like, and simplifying things. There would be just as many (what feels like) insurmountable challenges in the new life, they’d just be different challenges. In saying that some of the challenges I have in my current life (like ADHD) would follow me everywhere anyway.<p>However, in saying that, I have had times where I have been deeply unhappy in whatever I was doing in life at a time, and with regard to that, I’ve started over numerous times.
I started out studying to become a lawyer. I was in my 3rd year of a law degree when I quit.
I was also living in a house with a guy who was addicted to methamphetamine and unpredictable, one night, while he was out, I packed up all my shit and slipped out in the middle of the night, changed my number and never looked back.
A few years later, I found myself working in a crappy job, but I had got quite high up and the money was fairly decent. I hated it so much though, so I quit my decent paying job and became an apprentice basically on some of the shittest wages I’ve ever had in my life. Financially that was difficult but doing that was the right choice it’s finally starting to pay off.
There has been many times in my life where I’ve walked away from situations, or cut ties with people who were dragging me down. I often go along with things sometimes, pretending I am ok to the outside world, while I recognise I’m not ok on the inside, and when I feel like that, I try to strategize, and think of ways to make my situation better. Sometimes though, it is better to just walk away and start fresh.