"If I ever become a Saint — I will surely be one of 'darkness.' I will continually be absent from Heaven — to [light] the light of those in darkness on earth,"<p>The force of will involved in turning her depression, spiritually focused or otherwise, into her organizing principal is inspiring.<p>Really, discounting everything else about the woman, positive, negative, whatever, that she could marshall the "darkness" she felt to become the cornerstone of her sense of self, and use that to advance her work, rather than destroy herself, is breathtaking to me.