1b:I[3821,["874","static/chunks/874-5853b36c417a5f43.js","598","static/chunks/598-8e8b350c69b61725.js","735","static/chunks/735-5d5145bb0f79dc16.js","881","static/chunks/881-64080935572a77c4.js","671","static/chunks/app/%5Blocale%5D/submitted/page-9972e6b84e2d7c4f.js"],"default"] 1c:T73c,Yes, I am objectively a failure. This might be hard to believe, but I am 23 now, and ever since I was 16, my life has been just failure after failure.

At 16 my grades started to fail dramatically. I only made it through High School because of two teachers' "mercy".

At 18 I went to college for Computer Science. I failed every single subject I had, even one that had nothing to do with CS. I blew all of my parent's money.

At 19, I suffered a rare illness (still have it, in control now), which combined with depression made me into a very anxious person.

At 20 I tried studying Robotics at a non-uni level institution, I failed at it, blew my parent's money again, less severely though. I couldn't handle programming and dealing with electricity IRL.

At 21 I studied a non-uni level degree in Logistics, actually finished it, and now I'm working a job in the field. My job consist of basically manually inputting data that is soon to be automated (probably) and sending and receiving emails.

My friends WFH. My old classmates have degrees and master's in math, electric engineering, medicine, and more. All of then have got great amazing jobs that pay TRIPLE what I make now (minimum salary for my country).

My job requires me to commute to work 3 times a week to an office for 2.5h one way. I tried living alone, but roommates were hell, and I became very mentally anxious with some shit that happened at work.

I am afraid my skills in society are useless, that I should just vanish to make way for smarter, more capable people than I am. I was given EVERYTHING and yet I have failed, or have a significantly worse life than others.

I am already seeing a psychologist, for years.

I am cursed with

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