Since early ages I have this recurring paranoiac feeling that somewhere in the future a grave is already prepared for me. (which is true for all of us). If you imagine your life like a movie and you scroll to the end then ..<p>Not sure if it's midlife crisis though. (couldn't find a better naming).<p>With ages this theme comes more often and more deep, previously I managed to force myself to ignore it. Tried to find some answers in philosophy books/essays, but it always leaves me with the feeling that I'm just building a house of cards that blows away as soon as I close the book. The last couple of time it came my body started to shake. Previously I was somehow convinced that it's just me imagining the wrong thing, it wasn't affecting me physically.<p>Do you have it? if so how do you handle it? any good reads on the subject?
I too feel like this sometimes. I like to think death is just going to sleep from which you will never wake up. It makes it kind of a little bit easy to imagine it that way. This article helped me a lot to avoid this kind of thinking. <a href="https://www.brainpickings.org/2014/11/11/dostoyevsky-dream/" rel="nofollow">https://www.brainpickings.org/2014/11/11/dostoyevsky-dream/</a>