When I started running after a couple of weeks it hit me, I‘m a runner now. I was never a runner and now I can say that.<p>Sounds stupid but it felt powerful, all the possibilities what I could become.
Try to mentally "restart" yourself. By this, I mean try to reset, at least temporarily, all of your thoughts: your problems, your future goals, your conceptions of your Self. If successful, you'll feel lighter, as if you were at the beginning of a journey and not midway. I think this feeling is universal and you probably know what I'm talking about. That rare moment when the world seems fresh and new. It's elusive but powerful.<p>Some methods that seem to work, for me at least, are: meditation, immersing yourself in a particular work of fiction (especially a sci-fi movie at the cinema), turning off your phone and Internet connection, and getting lost in a new city.
There is a thing called "rapid personality change". Some people have done it.<p>Look up "Academy of ideas" channel on YouTube, it has a video on this topic. I found it very interesting.
In zen context -
Don't force yourself to start over. You will start over when you have to. Until then just try to be aware and have guilty pleasure. Some people call it meditation while some call it acceptance. Same thing with different names. Follow your heart, it will never let you down !
Everybody messes up at a certain point of time. I did, maybe you did too or eventually you'll.
But question is , how to leave it there and start over.<p>Its difficult to learn anything after a large gap. As you are not a beginner yourself now. Your Baggage adds up to your fatigue.
With reframing, watch some Dali Llama, he's good at making it simple.<p>I personally like moving to facilitate as well, changing the environment makes it easier to reframe, but does not on its own.