Born into a dysfunctional family (father beat the sh<i>t out of my mother, me, siblings). My mother in turn beat the sh</i>t out of me & my siblings.
I had trouble in elementary school. Had to repeat classes, graduated from high school late in life.
Worked mostly in temporary low-paying jobs, then went to school for 3 years doing basically nothing. Dropped out, then worked again somewhere, then went to school again pursuing a computer science degree (60% complete).<p>My life is just a big f*cking maze (too many trial and errors, esp. unnecessary ones: "doing the same thing over and over, and expecting different results"-kind of mistakes).<p>Now in my early 30s going to school with Gen-Z (feeling as the only Yoomer stuck in there), still having financial troubles (hard for me to make ends meet), wondering if this grind will ever come to a halt?
Especially when 3 decades have passed, and you never really worked in a "real job" being "socially awkward" and lonely for most of your life.<p>How can I make up for my lost years? I can't this is the realization. Time can't be brought back. So this is out of the equation. All I can do now, is look into typical recommendations/life advice/studies/findings and optimize as much as I am comfortable with:<p>- water fasting (mostly following Valter Longo)
- cold showers (b/c it helps against depression and ease my Reynolds syndrome)
- socializing (not easy for me, but I must try it at least b/c: https://news.harvard.edu/gazette/story/2017/04/over-nearly-80-years-harvard-study-has-been-showing-how-to-live-a-healthy-and-happy-life/)
- omega-3 and other supplements (good for easing depression caused by trauma/loneliness)<p>I am no expert, I don't understand these studies fully, but they at least give me some sense of direction to "steer" my remaining life out of this misery. (At least I hope so.)<p>1 year until I prospectively graduate. Let's see how this life of mine unfolds.