A little context to come along with my question.<p>Since i graduated Greek high school i started reading books. I started wanting and needing to learn and read books. I discovered that history is not just a meaningless course that tortures you with details of the past: names, dates, locations, who f* who, who killed who etc. I discovered the beauty of books and more precises the beauty of words and the meaning behind them.<p>As a person who has dyslexia school didn't provide me anything other than loathing for the subjects that i truly admire right now. It taught me how to fear learning and not how to learn. That fear, to this day, is still here with me. For instance, right now i want to study for my Digital Design course but every time i think about it my body fills with fear and then i'm searching for something else to procrastinate on (like writing this ASK HN thread).<p>A while ago, made the decision that, whatever i do with my life, i want learning, reading books and writing to be a fundamental part of my life, of my identity. I can't think how my life would be without them. Like it used to be. I lament about the fact that i lost so many years not reading and learning, instead i've developing social media addiction and crippling fear of even trying anything i want.