What happend to the inner critic character guy at the beginning? It's such a short piece but somehow he got misplaced somewhere along the line and never got a fair hearing.<p>Putting the pieces together, it probably went something like this. One fine day as OP was admiring a review he just finished (and we're all guilty of this) he had a secret thought that "aah. this is creative work". That is when our friend, the inner critic came in and <i>started</i> with "That's not creative". Now why would OP's very own inner critic say that?<p>The issue appears to be OP's <i>lifestyle</i>. He is not living a creative person's <i>lifestyle</i>. Which, alcoholism and poverty and what not aside, is rather glamorous and can be fun. Sure beats working 9 to 5. There is the promise of wild sex, drugs, cool friends, and a chance that some lost future generation may begin venerating you and your creative life.<p>So neither OP nor his inner critic are really being honest here.