2001.09.26? Don't go to college, at least not for computer science as you planned. You'll grow to hate it, you will never work in the field, and the loans will haunt you.<p>Write more, love more, exercise more, run away. Far, far away. This is your 31 year old self speaking. I can't tell you any answers because there aren't any. But I can tell you what to look for, and that's purpose. It won't be found in absent minded busy work there. Get active. Get away. Get going. Now.