Still trying to commit suicide. I tried coding and it was too stressful. Currently homeless and with $10 cash. I keep a rope in my bag. I haven’t been able to overcome fear of death but am set on being dead now.<p>Someone offered me a good job and offered to help get me a place to live, but I already know it will end badly with near certain probability. Turned it down.<p>Stay healthy out there, hn.
Go talk to this person, and accept the job and help. Ignore the thoughts you can have on refusing this person's help. Do the job without pushing yourself too much. Use the money to follow a therapy and to try new things as silly as they may seem (workout, meditation, sophrology, hypnosis...) as long as they are not harmful (drug consumption, gambling...). Let yourself at least a year before considering suicide as an option.<p>Good luck in your life. You are rock-bottom in your life right now, but that does not mean you cannot have a good and happy life later.