I'm sad that people don't do much of public reflection on how they managed to get where they are (how they moved things where these things are). Contrary they make up appealing stories (which sometimes becomes a part of idea becoming impactful) hiding real mechanics. I appreciate your kind of openess. Thanks for sharing. What you described is aligned with my observations and I hope it will save some time of rediscovering things which work. For example I could not accept repeating, pitching same idea again and again (though some people say that repetition is what works). After reading about your experience it will be easier for me to get there.