Losing My Hands

I can somewhat relate as I’ve suffered a brain injury. It was similar in that I couldn’t continue to go full tilt everyday. In my mind all my success was based on that: working all the time. Turns out I was wrong; I still make a living but am much more prudent about what I spend time on.<p>Anyway. After reading all the philosophical quotes etc I felt bad when you ended with this:<p>&gt;&gt; Despite my injury, I still try to maintain a bulletproof growth mindset. I constantly ask myself why I shouldn&#x27;t make more money every month.<p>My friend, even if there is anything to Carol Dweck (severe criticism is warranted there), this is the servant mindset that you just wrote about. Make more money for what? You can’t take it with you when you die and it will not make you happy in ill health.<p>Oh and you’re right about there not being any moral epiphany or reward in ill health. It just sucks. Feeling good is the opposite: it’s just good. There is nothing else.

Had this experience about 6-8 years ago, when I was 30ish. You know, a bunch of programming hobbies + a programming job + active writing as a hobby + not enough cardio activity.<p>It all started with a mild discomformt. Then the discomfort becomes something like mild but constant pain in fingers, hands, arm joints where the nerves are. Not pain-pain but unpleasant sensation. Then my fingertips went numb. And it was getting worse with every week.<p>My company had a great insurance so I went through a bunch of doctors. What they said was &quot;all relatively fine FOR NOW, nerve microtraumas accumulate but don&#x27;t get enough time to restore&quot;.<p>In the meantime I couldn&#x27;t do anything that involved touching a keyboard or a screen. A trivial phone call was a problem.<p>It took a while but I had to reassess my relationship with computers and health.<p>1. I started doing cardio. Walk a lot. 10k+ steps a day integrated into my routine. Kettlebells and running. Weightlifting. Weight control. The point is to increase blood flow everywhere and let the body fix itself. 2. Less stupid typing, more smart typing. 3. No mechanically clicking keyboards and mice. That&#x27;s is a nerve hit 1000s right there times a day.<p>It didn&#x27;t happen over a month, or even a year. The habit refresh took a long time to develop, years.<p>But I have my hands back! As a side effect I am in a good shape now, definitely better than in my early 30s.

There&#x27;s a few things that caught my attention. I am too in tech, but from what I understand and my circle, everyone... kinda worked less during the pandemic (especially at the start). How was this person pressured to work so much? He was doing machine learning for a company that offers clothes. How can you derive actual societal value from that? Not saying that the work was not interesting or challenging, just a bit weird take.<p>He also says he has 3 hobbies, and when the pandemic hit... it burst his bubble? I mean how many hobbies are you supposed to have? I&#x27;m not going to have 10 different hobbies to have &quot;resiliency&quot; in my hobbies shall a pandemic arrive.<p>Also, glaring omission on not sharing the reason how it happened? Everyone here works on a keyboard 8+ hours a day... maybe share what some of us could avoid?

I feel for this person.<p>Partly though, it seems to me that he will never achieve the results he hopes for. He is a product of the culture - he cannot think outside of the terms he has been given. He says as much:<p>&gt; Despite my injury, I still try to maintain a bulletproof growth mindset. I constantly ask myself why I shouldn&#x27;t make more money every month. The worst part is I truly do not know whether this is a ‘good’ mindset to have.<p>The thing I would say, is that yes it is possible to adopt all sorts of mindsets. The author is likely the product of his upbringing - ie the product of a good school, that has directed his competitive nature, etc. He has easily taken to the provided framework, which promises money! Ok, fine - but this is not what a person actually is, imo. It is akin to growing a tree in an espalier fashion to make it more usable for the gardener - the tree grows, fruits, etc, but does not grow as it would naturally.<p>To work out what one is requires inner work, uncovering what one is inside oneself - and adhering to that. One needs to listen and be in accord with one&#x27;s soul. (Which is not an acceptable HN phraseology, I know.) I&#x27;m not making a religious point either.

It’s not clear from the article. What was author diagnosed with? They said it was an injury…

Maybe this is why, as an industry, we need to stop glorifying workaholism. Getting RSI for pulling 15h days regularly is as surprising as the Super Size Me guy getting fat.<p>But well, last week we had a Google exec praise his team for pulling 100h work weeks, so I guess we&#x27;re not there yet.

My impostor syndrome is cured a little when a machine learning expert mentions acupuncture.

Doing these every day for 2 minutes might have prevented it: <a href="https:&#x2F;&#x2F;www.youtube.com&#x2F;watch?v=CF-RHMI-Oo0" rel="nofollow">https:&#x2F;&#x2F;www.youtube.com&#x2F;watch?v=CF-RHMI-Oo0</a>

Given that this individual talks about all kinds of treatments he&#x27;s tried for what happened to him yet no discussion of a medical diagnosis, I&#x27;m going to go out on a limb (no pun intended) and just posit that the vast majority of what happened here is mental illness related.

&gt;&gt;I constantly ask myself why I shouldn&#x27;t make more money every month. The worst part is I truly do not know whether this is a ‘good’ mindset to have.<p>If you are Sking yourself the same question as the author, consider an alternative animating force: curiosity.<p>When you&#x27;re in a rut, get curious. Pursue projects that make you go &quot;huh, I wonder what&#x27;s going on there&quot;. Pursue people that make you go &quot;huh, I want to hear more from this person&quot;.<p>If you&#x27;re in a manic tunnel of grinding, I bet you&#x27;re also in desperate need of curiosity.

Ok, so what was wrong with your hands after all? Did you go to a doctor?

Damn that’s brutal.<p>My hands were getting pretty bad too but then I got a Kinesis Adavtantage 2 and after 6+ months I have no issues. Definitely helped my hand issues

I&#x27;m intrigued by how they could be making $500k as a ML engineer for Stitchfix.

I thought it&#x27;s a repost of the story about a guy who prepared explosive (legally, I forgot which one, perhaps nitroglycerin) in his home lab and had a recepient with the &#x27;thing&#x27; explode in his hands.

There was another story from a guy who suffered a PTSD from coding too much, who would have literal panic attacks whenever he would work on something. If you remember it, could you please link the story?

&gt; I went through acupuncture physiotherapy, tried anything that might work and threw as many resources at my hands as I tried to work through not being able to use them.<p>...no mention of going to a doctor. I have a friend who died of cancer while getting his fillings replaced instead of seeing a doctor because &quot;mercury&quot;. I don&#x27;t know that modern medicine could have cured him, but I sure know getting his fillings replaced didn&#x27;t.<p>See a doctor, people!

&gt; Which quickly collapsed into If I can’t work hard, where do I derive my value from?<p>This really jumped out at me. As a society we have really screwed up royally when so many people derive their value, or own self worth, almost exclusively from work.<p>People should enjoy their work obvious, that&#x27;s better than hating it. But especially when you work for someone else, work should ultimately be the &quot;how&quot; behind the rest of your life.<p>Humans were built to derive value from community and relationships, both with your loved ones and with nature. The fact that we have effectively imprisoned the entire society into working 8-12 hour days 5 days a week just so they can rush to get chores done and do it all over is absolutely horrible.<p>If you&#x27;re reading this and this sounds familiar, go for a walk or plant some flowers in fresh soil. Call an old friend or go have dinner with some family and leave your phones at home. Don&#x27;t let work consume your life, it will never fill the void.

It&#x27;s a sad story and a good reminder to always keep in mind YOLO!<p>but I think it&#x27;s bit exaggerating to say losing my hands, while they&#x27;re still &quot;there&quot;. What about the guys who had their limbs amputated? They even can&#x27;t swim anymore, don&#x27;t even talk about cooking or putting on trousers (or self love..)<p>It&#x27;s a drama. Yes. I feel for you. I also feel&#x2F;see a lot of self pityriasis in your thinking&#x2F;text, like paying lots of attention to own condition and whining about.. I&#x27;m in a severe condition by myself, but I always have thought of this &quot;this shit. But others got more shit to bare and have a ticking clock over them&quot;<p>So, keep up the sanity. Live with your condition. Try to find a relief. Adapt to the new situation - what you already did. Write less text that trend to provoke others feeling pity for you. Or in my words: my problem is my condition and it&#x27;s my condition that it won&#x27;t become your problem.<p>Peace. Wish you the best.

Shit posture and bad keyboards are not losing your hands. This is ridiculous.

Had issues with my hands too.<p>But wtf man making 500k? And not having some reasonable exit plan at this point?<p>How uneven do you have to be to be smart enough to make it that far and not just exiting?!