I'm struggling to get back on my feet following divorce (18 years), depression, losing 2 parents my mom and the grandma who actually raised me - all in a 3 month period, well mom died the first month after separation in March, Grandma died a week after the divorce was final in June... (see: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=40714641).<p>I've revamped my resume 100 different ways, and it actually seems since i broke off my clients into their own jobs basically it is worse, but it looks more professional according to mine and Claude's opinion lol.<p>I'm 44, I've been using Laravel for 11 years, I'm full-stack. I've played with go, rust, and built small projects in python for clients. Of course JS ecosystem (react, vue, svelte, nextjs, prisma, etc).<p>I'd like a job that actually pays me what I'm worth, or well better than I get freelancing ($40). I haven't raised my rates since 2017, probably my first problem there. I was afraid I wouldn't find clients, but I'm not finding any now either... So might as well not find ones that pay me $80 an hour, right? Or maybe I actually find one..<p>Anyways, how do I get into a decent company -- startup, FAANG, w/e... I'd be super happy with $120k+.<p>If anyone has tips or suggestions, I'm all ears. I'm sure I'm not the only one in this boat either.