I can relate.<p>Be aware that well-meaning people will read your post, not realize your situation is outside of their own experience, reinterpret your problem into something that makes sense to <i>them</i>, and then give you useless advice based on their reinterpretation.<p>I've meditated on and off for years and, although it's pleasant, it sidesteps the real problem without actually addressing it. My conscious mind can be clear but a feeling of subconscious pressure remains, as though I'm in a shelter but I'm still aware of a storm outside that never stops trying to blow open the windows and doors. Have I just not meditated enough? Maybe, but that's unfalsifiable.<p>The best solution I've found isn't emptying the mind, it's occupying it with pleasing, intentionally-chosen, low-stakes mental puzzles or creative exercises.<p>This approach doesn't solve the root problem either, just avoids it, but it helps.