<i>Is it because I'm pushing myself to do something I don't really want to do?</i><p>Yes, yes you are. Here's the evidence: faced with a choice of staying in bed or project work, you choose staying in bed. "Your projects are less interesting to you, less motivating, less exciting, than lying in bed doing nothing".<p>(That doesn't mean "shame yourself until you work on them", it means "pick something else").